How could you try to be something so evil, that you even knew if you did that, we will not want to even forgive you?
We were so dissapointed. Felt hurt. We didn't know and we just didn't understand.
I am forgiving. We are all forgiving. At least, we try.
But yeah. Remember on what it is trust. And how you use it.
Today has given me time to think about everything which has happened to me lately. About everything.
Everything that bothers/did bother me.
Everything that has been happening to my life lately since this past 2weeks/a month.
I just kind of feel that life is a total hard.
Everything doesn’t seem right. Everything doesn’t make any sense. Everything is just unfair for me.
Everything is never okay for me.
I, do not have any idea why I’m writing this rubbish on my blog which makes my blog much rubbish-er.
It’s all about the time to talk. It was and always is never easy for me. And as well for so many people. You know when people say ‘Talk is cheap!!’ Yeah people are damn right.
But you know, nothing is cheap. And so is Talk.
People might be true and wrong at the same time.
In the ‘Talk is cheap’ case, people are pure wrong about the time for a talk.
The time for a talk is never cheap. It will always get the fights involved.
By the time I’ve grown up, I always get some problems around a ‘time for a talk’.
It is like an unfinished problem, no matter how hard you try to get it done.
A week ago, I got this problem.
I’ve learned a lot from that problem. Yeah, it just seems so hurtful and never to be something which is right.
But from all of them above, there's something I can learn, which is Respect.
Well, all i can say to everyone is thank you and sorry, but from the bottom of my heart, I'd like to say sorry, you will not understand, I mean it.
And if, AND IF you all say it's just too fast to make a decision (that big decision), you're all wrong. I've learned so much, and yes, this thing has been in our mind for a long time as long as I can remember.
Reasons? There's no reason. People are people, and sometimes, things just don't work out together. Such a shame that thing happens, but yet again, that's life.
Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do, and I've not done yet (not even a half-way). So there you go. Goodbye friend. It's just a part of something so called, life. You don't have to be afraid of it. I promise I'll make it up everything soon. And we'll meet just about anytime SOON. Sooner than you can ever imagine.
Thank you, thank you, thank you to EVERYONE. I appreciate what you've done to me. You're all simply wonderful people.
Using iPhone's video recorder
**ps; Mungkin hasilnya jadi sangat2 LQ, tapi yah gak papa lah! Heh. :3
Maybe you've heard my rants about football on my Twitter before, but let's just make every point clear.
It's about football, supporting, and "life-supporter".
Never really thought I would actually post this, but.
You know, I have known about this quote for so long-
"when you start supporting a football club, you don’t support it because of the trophies, or a player, or history. you support it because you found yourself somewhere there; you found a place where you belong."
I think what I want to say here, is what that quote says.
You maybe will start saying "Oh, there you go again! You will start complaining about your life and 'Arsenal'.
Have your mouth shutted up.
I'm not actually complaining, I just want to clear things up.
Two until three weeks have given me so much lately.
Everything related to football.
And Arsenal of course.
And not to forget about people who make comments to me lately. And other Arsenal supporters as well.
I swear to God, I have been called as a 'LOSER' for the rest of my life by so-many-people-which-now-I-do-not-have-respect-for-them-anymore.
By people who support some clubs who have some big achievements who always come every year. Just let's not mention what clubs.
Go predict now, because of what.
Arsenal. Of course a worst performance of Arsenal last season. (You guys saw that coming already.)
Been called as a loser is not easy.
But leaving or quitting from supporting Arsenal is NOT easy either. The fact is that, quitting from supporting Arsenal is harder than called as a loser.
I haven't really explained this before, but well-
My family is not called as football fanatics. All of them like football. But I can see that, they don't really devote their life to football/clubs they like, like I do.
And plus, the fact that I just really started watching football last season.
Yeah you can be judgemental now and tell me that I'm a plastic fan.
But at the first I saw Arsenal played, not really sure when I really really started watching Arsenal, seriously, but I can say that was when Arsenal vs Ipswich Town, when Arsenal equalized at the end of the match, when Fabregas took the penalty.
I saw them playing.
It's unbelievable, as soon as I knew that all the players are under than 25 years old.
Can you see? The tactics, the acceleration, and the mobility as well.
And that goes me whoah!
Not being quiet, cause Arsenal has made myself falling in love. I started to learn what is Arsenal. How is Arsenal. And of course I'm still learning. Until now.
You can say, my knowledges about this club is not that much, compared to other-devoted-arsenal-fans in the world. Or maybe some non-arsenal-fans as well.
What is that quote up there.
"You support it because you found yourself somewhere there; you found a place where you belong."
Fell in love quickly. And I found myself comfortable right there.
Is it really my fault that I fell in love with Arsenal? With the club? And everything related with it? Or is that my TV's fault, why it aired Arsenal's match that moment? Or is that my feeling's fault that love I give/been giving for Arsenal grows that fast?
No it's not.
It's not my fault. It's not my TV's fault. It's not my feeling's fault.
It happens naturally. Without someone's predict.
Arsenal did choose me to support them.
I did not choose Arsenal to be a club which is being supported in my entire life.
I can not see myself supporting other clubs, but for exception; FC Bayern.
My love for Arsenal is different; and maybe bigger than FC Bayern. Somehow nothing can compare to Arsenal.
Arsenal has been a part of my life from now on.
A club that really teaches me something.
I love watching Arsenal play every week end, I looked up to some legends like Dennis Bergkamp and Thierry Henry, and etc.
I love screaming when I watch Arsenal play.
I'm happy when Arsenal wins their matches, and I also feels the heartbreak when we see, we lose at some important matches-which happens a lot nowadays.
I just get emotionals when I talk about my favourite club, Arsenal FC.
What is that succesful club without supporters. Life supporters maybe?
Without some loves that actually there no matter your club wins or loses?
Nothing. Nothing, indeedy.
Somehow, I find it quite funny how people only support club when they win. And start bashing their own club when they lose.
Funny. Very, very funny.
If I don't laugh, I will cry, surely.
What matters in my eyes is- loyality.
But no, loyality is not an absolute thing.
Nothing/No one sues for your loyality to a club.
There's always been a thing.
Called an era of a football club.
When they always win/or in their glorious moments. And also, when they always lose.
No one sues for your loyality, but you think now.
Do you ever want to let something go which was there on your heart, on your life, which helped you from life, alone standing there? Without being supported? Really?
In all honesty, no one would actually do that.
It was your memory, sweet sweet memory, and do you want to let that go, and just forget it? Not that easy.
But it's in my really-really-personal-and-emotional view.
What about you?