My favourite comedian! Haha, not that quality jokes, but well you can try. :)

Dx

catching ups.

I actually just got done reviewing history(s) for some tests for school when it starts again, and I'm doing nothing so I was just thinking why not post some rubbishes here? haha.

Well, as I told you in previous post, I'm gonna tell something big! It actually is not big enough, since it's personal. But one thing I can share from what I've learned, and that is definitely a great and fine present for me, for us to finally start 2012!

It's about trust. And that's all that really matters. I mean like, you can try to be good and maybe do anything just perfectly fine, but don't, I repeat do not ever forget something which is called trust. Trust is everything. When that person you love the most trust you, it feels like heaven. But by the time I learned, trust can be misused. Really, that happens plenty of times in life. And well, that happened to us, too. I don't understand at the first place on everything. About that person.

Why did you do that to us?
How could you try to be something so evil, that you even knew if you did that, we will not want to even forgive you?
We were so dissapointed. Felt hurt. We didn't know and we just didn't understand.

I know that, people are just people. Things don't work out together. (Used to this line, already!) But you can be evil enough just by stealing my ice-creams or my favourite food! Don't try to steal 'trust'. That's painful for me, and really, for us. You're the same. You're the same with the people whom I met, which doesn't even have fat hearts and greedy with all the things that make you happy, and make us feel tiny. You're the same and no different.

Yeah. I know, forgiveness can lift us bigger. Forgiveness destroys everything. So I choose forgiveness instead of everything.
I am forgiving. We are all forgiving. At least, we try.

Even from the deep of our hearts, we were and are so dissapointed.
But yeah. Remember on what it is trust. And how you use it.

And that's all.

Dx

Happy New Year! 2012 :)

Just really passed by to say hello to blogger, as if I don't have enough time to post, but next time I'm free, I'm gonna tell something big. And once again, Happy New Year to all of you. Enjoy yourself.

Talk is Cheap(?)

Today has given me time to think about everything which has happened to me lately. About everything.
Everything that bothers/did bother me.
Everything that has been happening to my life lately since this past 2weeks/a month.
I just kind of feel that life is a total hard.
Everything doesn’t seem right. Everything doesn’t make any sense. Everything is just unfair for me.
Everything is never okay for me.
I, do not have any idea why I’m writing this rubbish on my blog which makes my blog much rubbish-er.

It’s all about the time to talk. It was and always is never easy for me. And as well for so many people. You know when people say ‘Talk is cheap!!’ Yeah people are damn right.
But you know, nothing is cheap. And so is Talk.
People might be true and wrong at the same time.
In the ‘Talk is cheap’ case, people are pure wrong about the time for a talk.
The time for a talk is never cheap. It will always get the fights involved.
By the time I’ve grown up, I always get some problems around a ‘time for a talk’.

It is like an unfinished problem, no matter how hard you try to get it done.
A week ago, I got this problem.
I’ve learned a lot from that problem. Yeah, it just seems so hurtful and never to be something which is right.
But from all of them above, there's something I can learn, which is Respect.

MY ROOM

Since the day I moved to Surabaya, I haven't made a proper post about what my room looks like. But, I don't have a decent camera here in Sby though. :( Anyway; //

IT'S SO COMFY. It's not that big, but comfy enough I'd say. :)

And the fact that I have to share my room with my sister is a bit -_-.

Dx

"Let’s face it: I’m scared, scared and frozen. First, I guess I’m afraid for myself, the old primitive urge for survival. It’s getting so I live every moment with terrible intensity. It all flowed over me with a screaming ache of pain, remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted. When you feel that this may be goodbye, the last time, it hits you harder."

I miss them.
Dx

December 26th, 2011

Monday morning.

Lately, I've been doing this thing, well you know, watch a lot of cool videos on YouTube. And I end up with this video. I got it from Tumblr actually, but back then watching/strolling some videos from YouTube is addicting. It's cute. But knowing that, I have to get some Germans studying in a few hours not cute for me. Well, I'm so excited about all the things related to Germany, but not without some teachers. I'm just so lost. Oh well. Bye.

Dx

December 25th, 2011

I don't read The Hunger Games, but my sister and a lot of my friends do, and plus I do really really like Taylor Swift's music. So this totally counts. This is so peaceful and too sappy. Great notes, great lyrics. Recommend you to listen this.

People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out

Okay, so all you've heard is true, I'm moving. To another school. In another city.

Well, all i can say to everyone is thank you and sorry, but from the bottom of my heart, I'd like to say sorry, you will not understand, I mean it.
And if, AND IF you all say it's just too fast to make a decision (that big decision), you're all wrong. I've learned so much, and yes, this thing has been in our mind for a long time as long as I can remember.

Reasons? There's no reason. People are people, and sometimes, things just don't work out together. Such a shame that thing happens, but yet again, that's life.

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do, and I've not done yet (not even a half-way). So there you go. Goodbye friend. It's just a part of something so called, life. You don't have to be afraid of it. I promise I'll make it up everything soon. And we'll meet just about anytime SOON. Sooner than you can ever imagine.

Thank you, thank you, thank you to EVERYONE. I appreciate what you've done to me. You're all simply wonderful people.
Goodbye!

My picture. Taken by Haris, my pal.

L-R; Erma, Opi, Dina, myself, and Tanjung. Too much narsistic in once. Can't contain, lord. But, seriously though, I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO POSE IN FRONT OF CAMERA?!

Video taken by me
Using iPhone's video recorder

Nyahaha! Sebenernya ini video udah lama banget, tapi baru kepikir buat di-posting sekarang. Ketika kelasmu mendapatkan "fasilitas sekolah yang paling beharga", maka hal inilah yang kami kerjakan! :D Enjoy.
**ps; Mungkin hasilnya jadi sangat2 LQ, tapi yah gak papa lah! Heh. :3

"And It's Arsenaaal, Arsenal FC..." and other stuffs too of course.

Well.
Maybe you've heard my rants about football on my Twitter before, but let's just make every point clear.
So.
It's about football, supporting, and "life-supporter".
Never really thought I would actually post this, but.

You know, I have known about this quote for so long-

"when you start supporting a football club, you don’t support it because of the trophies, or a player, or history. you support it because you found yourself somewhere there; you found a place where you belong."

I think what I want to say here, is what that quote says.
You maybe will start saying "Oh, there you go again! You will start complaining about your life and 'Arsenal'.
No.
Have your mouth shutted up.
I'm not actually complaining, I just want to clear things up.

Two until three weeks have given me so much lately.
About everything.
Everything related to football.
And Arsenal of course.
And not to forget about people who make comments to me lately. And other Arsenal supporters as well.

I swear to God, I have been called as a 'LOSER' for the rest of my life by so-many-people-which-now-I-do-not-have-respect-for-them-anymore.
By people who support some clubs who have some big achievements who always come every year. Just let's not mention what clubs.
Go predict now, because of what.
Arsenal. Of course a worst performance of Arsenal last season. (You guys saw that coming already.)
Been called as a loser is not easy.
But leaving or quitting from supporting Arsenal is NOT easy either. The fact is that, quitting from supporting Arsenal is harder than called as a loser.

I haven't really explained this before, but well-
My family is not called as football fanatics. All of them like football. But I can see that, they don't really devote their life to football/clubs they like, like I do.
And plus, the fact that I just really started watching football last season.
Yeah you can be judgemental now and tell me that I'm a plastic fan.
But at the first I saw Arsenal played, not really sure when I really really started watching Arsenal, seriously, but I can say that was when Arsenal vs Ipswich Town, when Arsenal equalized at the end of the match, when Fabregas took the penalty.
I saw them playing.
It's unbelievable, as soon as I knew that all the players are under than 25 years old.
Can you see? The tactics, the acceleration, and the mobility as well.
And that goes me whoah!
Not being quiet, cause Arsenal has made myself falling in love. I started to learn what is Arsenal. How is Arsenal. And of course I'm still learning. Until now.
You can say, my knowledges about this club is not that much, compared to other-devoted-arsenal-fans in the world. Or maybe some non-arsenal-fans as well.
But.
What is that quote up there.
"You support it because you found yourself somewhere there; you found a place where you belong."
Fell in love quickly. And I found myself comfortable right there.
Is it really my fault that I fell in love with Arsenal? With the club? And everything related with it? Or is that my TV's fault, why it aired Arsenal's match that moment? Or is that my feeling's fault that love I give/been giving for Arsenal grows that fast?

No it's not.
It's not my fault. It's not my TV's fault. It's not my feeling's fault.
It happens naturally. Without someone's predict.
Arsenal did choose me to support them.
I did not choose Arsenal to be a club which is being supported in my entire life.
I can not see myself supporting other clubs, but for exception; FC Bayern.
But no.
My love for Arsenal is different; and maybe bigger than FC Bayern. Somehow nothing can compare to Arsenal.
Arsenal has been a part of my life from now on.
A club that really teaches me something.
I love watching Arsenal play every week end, I looked up to some legends like Dennis Bergkamp and Thierry Henry, and etc.
I love screaming when I watch Arsenal play.
I'm happy when Arsenal wins their matches, and I also feels the heartbreak when we see, we lose at some important matches-which happens a lot nowadays.
I just get emotionals when I talk about my favourite club, Arsenal FC.

But.
What is that succesful club without supporters. Life supporters maybe?
Without some loves that actually there no matter your club wins or loses?
Nothing. Nothing, indeedy.

Somehow, I find it quite funny how people only support club when they win. And start bashing their own club when they lose.
Funny. Very, very funny.
If I don't laugh, I will cry, surely.
What matters in my eyes is- loyality.
But no, loyality is not an absolute thing.
Nothing/No one sues for your loyality to a club.
There's always been a thing.
Called an era of a football club.
When they always win/or in their glorious moments. And also, when they always lose.
No one sues for your loyality, but you think now.
Do you ever want to let something go which was there on your heart, on your life, which helped you from life, alone standing there? Without being supported? Really?
In all honesty, no one would actually do that.
It was your memory, sweet sweet memory, and do you want to let that go, and just forget it? Not that easy.
But it's in my really-really-personal-and-emotional view.
What about you?
YOU decide.